my one true love... is you.

still wondering. still trying. still going to be screwed anyway. still wondering why i'm caring so much.

i feel so down. just depressed.

"For he is the living God
and he endures forever
his kingdom will never be destroyed
his dominance will never end
He rescues and he saves
he performs signs and wonders
in the heaven and on the earth."

-Daniel 6:26, 27

Just finished reading the book of Daniel. now on to the book of Hosea. must remind myself to write the reflection for Daniel if not i'll forget the message for doing so. hopefully, i'll get to the new testament soon. trying to read the whole book but sometimes i can only do 10 verses or so since they're quite good to reflect on. it really feels me with awe everytime i read about the faith the people had in the Lord. it takes a lot to believe without seeing, and i hope that i'll be as strong in my faith as they were. but sometimes it's very hard to do so. then again, no one said it was easy. one has to face their problems and deal with them before it can be said that you've succeeded. running away never solves much.

gah. i think i'm trying to kill myself or something. you know the vampire chronicles? which started with the "interview with the vampire"? followed by "the vampire lestat"? which was then followed by "queen of the damned" and then "the tale of the body thief" and "memnoch the devil"? blah blah blah.

i have the first 5 except for tale of the body thief. but guess how many i've actually finished? two. queen of the damned was rerererereread. if there is such a word. haha. no such thing. i made it up! memnoch was read once. interview and vampire lestat was started but not completed. and then i decided to go ahead and buy memnoch the devil. i also managed to get "blood and gold" for a cheap cheap price. got them today. so that means i have 4 books to complete.

while i love anne rice and her dark philosophy, sometimes i don't understand what she's writing about. it's just too... thinking for me. i'm going to spend the rest of monday and the week on "the vampire lestat". god, i love that man. i WILL finish the book.

remember how obsessed i was with the vampire chronicles? how i went from one end of singapore to the next just to find the vcd for "interview with the vampire"? that was last year in august. stupid vcd was so hard to find since it was produced in 1994! haha, Sonya managed to find the vcd and give it to me for my birthday. so what brought on the sudden interest in the books again? possibly the fact that my sister took them out to reread and the fact that i watched the vcd again.

finished math tutorial but did one only since i think i've misplaced the other previous tutorial. gah. did history outline for which i had totally no idea what i was talking about. did econs mcq. still have literature pc essay to do as well as cold war essay.

i hope i'll do them tomorrow. what can i say? essays scare me.

{-Chained to you-}